*yawn* amber told me im slacking on this ... so i figured i must update and i have a lot to say ... so ... here goes *rolls up nonexistant sleeves* [im too lazy to write full paragraphs, so in latest update holly style, u guys get numbered bullets]

1] today was the last day that my whole family would have the ability to get all together to spend time together before mike leaves in 8 days. i woke up with hardly the ability to breathe, my throat was so swollen and all i got was bitched at for being sick [if you want to read more, go to my xanga : www.xanga.com/wunderfullifeofemmalee ] so i spent the day alone and sick and cleaning . gay

2] I started my period and have really bad cramps ... like i NEVER do ...

3] Dan came over around 8 and we went to a party the allens had at their house ... alli was there ... and more than ever, i wanted to take this freaking pillow she was messing with ... put it on her face and SIT on it until she died ... she doesnt hit on dan, and neither does rachel... I DONT MIND RACHEL ... she's cool... but something about alli just REALLY PISSES ME OFF ... he knows i dislike her ... and he doesnt care ... so ... whatever

4] he ignored me most of the time

5] he wore this really stupid t shirt that rach and alli made for him *mocks it rudely* i really hate that shirt ... i wanna burn it or throw it out the window or something

6] mike leaves in 8 days and he's mad at me for bailing today i think ...

7] my family has been ignoring me since i bailed on them ...

8] when dan left tonight ... i didnt kiss him, hug him or even say goodbye. i just laid there...silent. hating myself.




im really upset right now ... and dan just got back online and told me to call him ... so now im on the phone with him and im really really really really really really really really really really upset b/c he thinks he did something and he DIDNT. he's really the BEST guy in the world and i love him to death just for being him ... that is just never good enough for me ...

*slaps self* ....